Slice of Life Story Challenge: 1 of 31
“Maya, when you’re everywhere, you’re nowhere,” the wise friar advised, his voice a resonating baritone. Scattered as usual, distracted by the screensaver on his computer and his neat piles of clutter in his office, I tried to absorb the words and take them with me, bettering myself. For me, reconciliation and penance weren’t about guilt and not being good enough; instead this was a vehicle to help me become my best self.
My time with the wise friar was years ago, but so often those words still resonate as a sort of call, beckoning me to become my best self, knowing I”m still falling short and still scattered.
A visionary with epic ideas encumbered by unmedicated ADD, I can’t keep up with my ideas, I miss details, I change gears mid-sentence. I am off task one minute and in overdrive unable to stop the next. I am everywhere–not in an ominipresent sort of way but in a lack-of-present sort of way.
History repeats itself. The papers have piled up again, the professional sub was never requested, the day of meetings messed up, a calendar rarely opened, a mailbox with the red number aboive reading 2211, a forlorn to do list, papers strewn about my classroom, a hamper full of clothes, an upcoming conference presentation–unprepared. The everywhere piles up: department head, leadership role in KMWP, AYP tutoring, the busyness of family, jewelry trunk show, a weekly blog turned daily…and so much more.
I live life with passion; I take on things that matter to me. I neglect things that stress me out or that feel beyond my control (the 2211 emails and much more). I avoid. I talk. I fall into the abyss of distractions with my everywhere leading to nowhere.
Some people live their busyness without chaos. I know the visionary rarely becomes the pragmatic planner, but I need to find a way to channel my energy, organize my thoughts, check off my tasks, and become my best person. I need to become a grounded visionary, so everything I live and embrace will not find itself going nowhere.I am still trying to become my best self, live my own word for the year, and find the sacred in all things.